I’ll Always Want Him

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“I’ll always want him. Until every sun goes dark in every sky, until I am nothing more than long-forgotten cosmic dust, I will want him. And even then I suspect my particles will long for his.”

-Ann Aguirre

A Personal Post on Love and Loss

It’s a strange thing when you start to feel better after thinking you never would. It’s even stranger when you want to love again after losing the love of your life. A part of you says, “No, you can’t! It’d be a betrayal.” But another part of you, the better part of you, screams, “Yes! Live again! Love again!”

Truth is, he is the love of my life. And that will never change. But he is the love of that life. No doubt in my mind he was the soul mate for that me. But when you lose someone who is the most important part of your life, your world changes. And so do you. Inevitably and irreversibly, you’re not the same person you were.  And now I understand, there’s going to be another perfect person for the new me. Another love of my new life.  And that person will in no way undermine his position in my heart.

Some people only get to live one life, but I’ve been given two. Perhaps, as we each navigate this world and our relationships, we can all see it as a new life each time we cycle round and round.

Finally, I realize there is no better way to honor him and our love then by embracing my new life and finding a new person to love. I am ready.

 

Loving Me Is A Work of Art

When I’m going down

       I don’t want you to follow me

       You come around and the best of me is known

       But when you leave I fall apart, yea I’m a mess, you see

       And loving me is a work of art

work of art

Heartbreak Hero

Heartbreak Hero

       Come take my lovin’ away

       Heartbreak Hero

       Won’t you fly in and save the day

       Never know when you’re coming

       Never know how long you’ll stay

       You’re my heartbreak hero

Couldn’t have you any other way

heartbreak

Conversations with God – Matthew 28:18-20

June 8, 2012

It is written, “And Jesus came and said to them, ‘All authority in heaven and on earth has been give to me. Go therefore, and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age’.” Matthew 28:18-20. Your single most important goal in life must be to praise me and to witness to others, to tell others of my works within you and in your life. All other goals pale in comparison. I have gifted you and I’ve given you the tools to use these gifts. I’m working detailedly in your life every day to prepare you to give this gift back to me. To use this gift as I intended, to your greatest ability through me, to your widest reach, to mine, which is global. Are you ready? Do not fret, my child. Remember that I have also told you, “I have power and authority over all things in heaven and on Earth.” With me, you are ready. In my time, you are ready. Through me, you are able. So when you get there, you will proclaim to all those who ask how, that I exist and that my love endures forever. My grace is incomparable.

 

Why Lying Hurts the Liar

When you lie to someone you love, even about something seemingly insignificant, each lie is like a brick in a wall going up between the two of you. And when he tells you he loves you, the wall deflects it away…

Words are Overrated

Go to another country and fall in love with someone who doesn’t speak your language.

Then you realize words are just words.

We use them carelessly, wrecklessly, and far too often. We toss words around like rice but whether they fall on deaf ears or pierce souls, we can’t be sure. Once spoken, we relinquish control.

Once they slither from our tongues, they become like mist- impossible to catch, form, or direct.

Like moments and bullets, once out there, words can’t be retrieved.

So communicate with body language, feeling, energies, but use words only when necessary. So much pain and misunderstanding could be skirted if we used less words.

Relationship Goals for 2014

Seeing as 2014 is fast approaching (4 more days!!) I decided to write a list of my personal relationship goals. But I’m not going to wait until 2014 to start working on these. I’m starting today. 🙂

Here is what I’ve come up with:

Less talking, more listening. Less thinking, more being. Less discussing feelings, more actual feeling. Less analyzing the other, more loving the other.

What are your personal relationship goals? xoxo

Perfect

I love you just the way you are

but you don’t see you like I do.

You shouldn’t try so hard to be perfect.

Trust me, perfect should try to be you.

A Love Poem

I knew

as soon as I saw him

that I’d spend

far too long

trying to write a poem

as beautiful as him.