“At the bottom of her heart, however, she was waiting for something to happen. Like shipwrecked sailors, she turned despairing eyes upon the solitude of her life, seeking afar off some white sail in the mists of the horizon. She did not know what this chance would be, what wind would bring it her, towards what shore it would drive her, if it would be a shallop or a three-decker, laden with anguish or full of bliss to the portholes. But each morning, as she awoke, she hoped it would come that day…”
– Gustave Flaubert, Madame Bovary
Christian spirituality is like a music birthed out of freedom. A language of the soul. Everybody sings their song the way they feel it, closing their eyes and lifting up their hands…
When I think about the Universe, how scientists haven’t found the edge of it, how nobody knows exactly where we are on the map…
I think how there are really only two human responses to such beautiful mystery- terror and awe.
God tells us that fear is the appropriate response, that it is the beginning of all wisdom. Yet, I think too much of our time is spent trying to dissect God, to understand Him (so that we no longer have to fear) and too little is spent allowing our hearts to simply feel awe.
It’s ironic; we deprive our hearts of wonder and yet, we need wonder. We need wonder to explain what is going to happen to us. We all know that death is coming and we need something mysterious to happen after it. We need to know that God has things figured out, even if we don’t. We need there to be Someone bigger than us who has it all under control.
Yes, I think this is our greatest worship- wonder.
As opposed to the Ego which can be called our False Self. Our True Self is our soul. Once discovered, our True Self can serve as an incredible reference point that is both within us and beyond us.
Our True Self knows that there is nowhere to go or get to, we are already at home. It doesn’t strive or reach, cling or grasp, it simply is.
If only we can find and embrace our soul, our True Self, we will stumble upon the utter freedom that has been around us and within us all along.
What are you looking for?
Whatever you want emotionally, you have to start giving away. Want to find company? Open up to other people.
“the area dividing the brain and the soul
is affected in many ways by
some lose all mind and become soul:
some lose all soul and become mind:
some lose both and become:
“She was beautiful, but not like those girls in the magazines. She was beautiful, for the way she thought. She was beautiful, for that sparkle in her eyes when she talked about something she loved. She was beautiful, for her ability to make other people smile even if she was sad. No, she wasn’t beautiful for something as temporary as her looks. She was beautiful, deep down to her soul.” – F. Scott Fitzgerald
There are few things I enjoy more than riding around with the windows down listening to good music. The wind against my skin is a cleansing for my soul.
It’s the little things…
My soul is from elsewhere, I’m sure of that, and I intend to end up there.